Thursday, January 29, 2009

HAIL MARY, PASS THE GRACE

Its been a tough week.

This damn Computer Program.

Supposedly, when we get it working in the next 4 years, it will render my job obsolete.
Yesterday, I knocked over shelving, threw equipment across the Office, kicked boxes and generally had myself a “spell”.
Fifty-two years old and I threw a Temper-Tantrum.
The lady I work with said it was “very un- businesslike”, so I pulled out my pocketknife and began trimming my nails as I glared threateningly over the tops of my glasses at her. I said

'Business-like? I'm just a cranky old ex-Chef and when things ain't going right, I don't mind makin' a whole lot of noise."



And I hate to say it, but it seemed to get results that 100 polite Business-like E-Mails had not. Conference calls ensued, a flurry of EMails and R&D managed to come up with a Beta-manual or something.
But that doesn't make it right, losing my temper like that.
It hurts me down deep when I let my anger and frustration control me.

So I went over this with my sponsor, and he was glad to help me with a Prayer.
Its the first prayer i have said in 35 years:

‘Dear God of my Misunderstanding:
Please Sir, I humbly ask that you grant me Grace, Patience and Tolerance enough to get me through this situation with some Dignity, how-so-ever you might see fit.
Thank You in advance for Your Loving-kindness and Consideration.
Bulletholes in the Mailbox”


So far today it has worked very well.

Update- it worked all day long, and into today as well!
I don't know how, or why it works, but I am willing to keep giving it a chance.

5 comments:

MikeTheWaiterDotCom said...

well hallelujah... praise the lord ... good for you, bullet ,...one day at a time ..
from indiana, mTw

Barbara said...

It's only human to lose it every now and then. You didn't really hurt anything or anyone. Better to vent your spleen than get an ulcer I say.

Dave Mows Grass said...

I've thrown exactly one tantrum in the six years I've been with my current employer. I spare you the details, but that one tantrum got more problems fixed than all of my businesslike communications, before or since, put together. Sometimes you have to throw a fit.

Good stuff here over the last week. I've been in a cave. Cheers!

Anonymous said...

Yay. Bulletholes!! God's will keep you. and yours.
munchkin

GrizzBabe said...

Prayer changes thangs! Or so the bumper sticker says.